today i make him angry… because of my childish attitudes.. i hate my self .. why i was being so childish like that….

because he ignored me by watching dvds… honestly, i want him focused on me… spoiled with me.. playing with me.. argghhhh.. i hate that i have no voice to express what i want… why i am a passive girl…

so sorry honey… if i wasn’t like that, i’m sure everything will be okayy………..

today, he also told me about his burden and responsibility… i  know that he has overload things in his mind, about financial, work, and money. he was so tired today and want to relax for a while.. argghhhh i hate that myself didn’t understand him… stupid olipppppp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!